a long msg
i guess i have to blog abt all things which i had happen in the past two months into this posts...
actually planned to stop blogging ... but after serious thought sometime blog maybe a perfect place for me to either vent my anger or to voice my sorrow and definitely to share the fun events...
for this two months of holidays... actually for me i didn nothing much ...nothing dramatic for me to elaborate much ...
most of the time will be work ... work... work ....
then went out with friends for drinks...
the most happening will be zhi hao birthday chalet..
surpose to be a surprise to him by we viz... ended up a surprise for all of us ... but anyways we enjoyed alot in the chalet.. chat la .. bbq la... play la... stroll la... sleep la.... eat la... and etc la...
it is always fun to have a friends chalet....
time pasts very fast when u are having fun..... 3 days 2 nights ended...
then back to the same routine ... shd be attending to class gathering with lynnette zhi hao sebas they alll.... but i didn go... sorry ar...
i am having my problem back surrounding and twisting inside my mind..
a problem i will always have when it comes to holiday period..
i will called it the " stay away " ..
i will tend to get a distance with all friends,, is not becos i dislike them or wat... but i will be better alone so i wouldn spoil their moods....
i am actually able and believe that i have step my step forwards but actually i did only a small steps..
after yrs and lecture from my manager dave... he teaches me alot of things.. really alot that i have actually grown more "thinkable"... u can called me stupid, becos i always think for us before myself...
i wanted to force myself to leave the island where i was trapped long ago .. there are always passer-by helpers who willing to give me a ride, but i refused .. somehow confide myself that i will be able to conquer this island and make it mine.. but i was wrong... i don match to be the owner of this island.. instead of a kings i became a fugitive...
so i have made my mind to take the boat left behind and get out to where i belong.. but my willingness still cant fully control my mind to leave the island..
and i was drifting in the sea now, considering to leave, and to psycho my mind to leave... i have to made a decsion ..
so i decided to stay faraway so, hoping to get a answer ... sorry friends if i actually have left u all out....
i am the kind of person who will prefer to be alone ... so someone i wouldn be rather quiet...
i am losting concentration on this topics.. fatigued.. lethargic...
i am back to my normal self .. not leaving out that i will think sometime.. but i will not enthu ...
school starting soon .. haizzzz although frankly speaking the holidays are consider long ..BUT holiday is always not enough..
good luck for everyone ... meet more friends ba....
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